I was rewatching favorite snippets of Guardian episodes because it makes me happy, and I'll take it, and I was rewatching episode 32 and there's this part where CSZ says sorry, that starts at 00:34:09 (after he says thank you to dream Changcheng) and I am just all: WHO'S CRYING I'M NOT CRYING WHO'S CRYING.
And Dream Changcheng tries to get him to eat (cause you gotta try to act like Changcheng Nightmare Master) and CSZ whispers he's not hungry and I'm all again: WHO'S CRYING NOT ME.
Because you can just see CSZ is overwhelmed and it is all :sob: